The first time I learned of a certain "swear" word, I was probably about ten, and one of my little brothers said, "Hey, did you know [he spelled the word out] is a swear word?" Embarrassed that a younger brother knew something I did not, I immediately countered with "No, it isn't!" Turns out I was wrong, although I couldn't tell you when the "badness" was confirmed to me. To this day I have never used it and never will. But sometimes I wish I was still innocent enough that I'd never heard it in the first place.
Well, in the interim time I've discovered more bad words. Words used in movies that bother me each time I hear them. Words I wish people in polite society wouldn't use, especially when yelling at me.
Even now, I'm encountering new words not to say. The latest was from the movie
Easy A, a movie I quite liked and wouldn't mind owning. Now that I think of it, I've heard the word before but never knew it was a bad one. I've probably sung it, snuck into musicals the way it sometimes is. It was the only bad word I noticed in the movie, and I only noticed it because she was sent to the principle's office because of it. Otherwise, I would have had no idea and wouldn't have given it a second thought.
It's probably better they did make such a big deal, because I might have ignorantly used it myself :P I love playing with words! It's so hard to leave one unsaid, especially when it was locked into the forefront of my brain!
A part of me immediately wanted to look it up to find out what it meant. But I didn't really want to type the word into a search engine because 1) I was a little afraid to find out the meaning, and 2) I didn't want it showing up in my history (I know I could wipe the history, but it still feels wrong).
The other part of me -- the part that didn't know yet what it meant -- wanted to use it.
I know what the new word means now -- a friend enlightened me and I'm glad she did -- so I'm less tempted, but it's still on my mind, as illustrated by Ray Romano in the last two minutes of this clip:
In an attempt to distract my mind and focus on stuff I would NOT be embarrassed to say, I've been watching classic movies and reading young adult fiction. I think about it the forbidden words less often now, but now that I've learned it, it'll probably pop up in my brain every once in awhile.
I apologize if through this post I might have inspired you to think of "ugly" words. What do you do to get those kind of things out of your head?